And That, Ladies and Gents', is How You Go Out

Yes, yes it is. And don't you ever forget it. Here's to you.

Wishing Oct. 25-28 was a relative statement,

;)

Nick

Real Days...

I'm not quite sure how else to describe it...there are days when you get up and the sun feels a little warmer and the breeze a little brisker and the air a little fresher...it just feels so much more real...hehehehe

I had a pie for breakfast. Yeah bro, oh yea. That was some damn good French Apple pie, lemme' tell ya'.

I just know today is going to be fan-flippin'-tastic. it's makin' me giggly...

Here's to never being as young as we are right now...and optomistic perseverence.

Wishing 21 was his lucky number,

Nick

When you thought it was all goin' downhill...

Life reminds you why in the world it smacked you with a ton of bricks in the first place.

Today was just a damned good day, i must say. Classes were uber fun, for a change, Diviners went very well today, i felt very good aobut my work, but never satisfied, i was reminded why in the world I love singing so much, God bless Julio the Cat, and, well, yeah!

Ah, gotta' love these days. Not to say that life isn't having its tumbles, of course, b/c it most certainly is, but that's really not the point now is it? AS i told Zack Hafenrichter

Music isn't just there, you have to make it.

being the poster boy of stupidity, yeah E-Steel y Michael Tornado y The Sharma-nator, to say something this remotely intelligent was a bit out of my comfort zone...

:P

God I love my work.

lol...anywho, life rolls on with a vengeance that just keeps rediscovering the same good reasons it's been rollin' on before.

And here's to the purple corner, where i find more happiness in the friendship there than anywhere else.

:)

Wishing it would snow more often,

Nick

Of Voice and Uber Pretzels

Now that's what i call a weekend. :)

Scratch that....I've had an apostraphe

Yes i said apostraphe.

And yes i meant epiphany.

Look, ladies and gents, here's the spill. Things are certainly not going to get better if we all sit around and yell and point fingers and be the teenagers we DON'T HAVE TO BE! And so i take that first step. WE have to WANT this to get better, folks. We have to approach every day not with the thought of man i hope this is a good day but, rather, Man THIS IS A GOOD DAY! This is how we need to live, friends! WAke up! We're all a little too sleepy. We all have to 'open our boxes' as Mr. Serra says, but leave them open!

It's time to live, people. And now is the time.

To tomorrow, the best day yet,

Nick

Insecure Mistakes

These little nibblers have a tendency to create lies in order to save one's ass and it's a sad thing when I see a friend succumb to it and turn on me. After everything i've said Kim would say that, of all things and then, once i knew , turn on me in an attempt to quell the truth. The truth will not be quelled and no lie or form of deciet shall keep me from it. And that is all i will say about it.

Where was I? Ah yes....square one.....waiting...and lovin' every minute of it, lemme' tell ya'.....well, almost every minute....

Long title, i know, but that's just how it goes.

Well, folks, it's been quite a tumultuous weekend, lemme' tell ya, but i won't bore you with the details. In summation, i finally got the courage to give the dorky little book to Dani and went over to her house and the whole shabang. We'll just see how that works out. Stay tuned.

The Diviners is getting there, it's really starting to get there. Today's speed run was a good test of lines and comfortability around people on stage. It really brought everything into perspective for everyone. This really has the potential to be a great show and, now, we;re just starting to realize it. Everyone is doing such a fantastic job. Jared has never stopped amazing and Carl is as fantastic as usual, the same with Lauren D. Spencer's bein' the old grumpy man he really is and zack and Sean are livening things up so much. Lauren B is steppin' out of her box plenty too. And Liana and Erin are, as expected, up to their old tricks of pwning major ass again. And Dani's stuff, aside from bein' pretty creepy at times, is really quite somethin' to look at. Gives me shivers.

They're all so fantastic. Pleasure to work with 'em, i tell ya'. We'll have a damn fine show yet, i assure you. Damn fine. :)

Well, that's all for now folks. Stay outa' trouble and keep in touch.


Waitin' on the world to change,


Nick

When all you can really think of to do is laugh...

I had two memorable moments like that today the better, or worse for that matter, of which i will share with you.

So my mother, in her infinite wisdom, chided me today. It took every ounce of control not to laugh hysterically and flip out on her at the same time. The scolding was something along the lines of...

"Just because you get straight A's doesn't mean you shouldn't break your good habits." Pardon? WTF? I can take a frickin' break every once and a while and talk to my friends online if i want to. I'm getting A's for the love of Mike. What more do you want from me? And that made me laugh. The incredible power of my mother to expect perfection out of excellence. Gotta' love it. Then she continued to rat on my room not being clean, never giving myself enough time to do any of my work and being home late all the time. I laughed to myself again. It's kinda funny, i guess. Oh well, what can ya' do?

Laughing is pretty much the only response i can think of presently. This weeks not goin' to bad. It's time to step it up with the Diviners. I just got to focus so much more now. This show isn't like POP or Macbeth or anything we've done before. It requires utter devotion which i intend to give to every extent of which i am capable. We just have to wipe are feet at the door and leave the world there. It'll be hard, didn't say it wasn't going to be, but it must be done.

This weeks going to be a good week. I can feel it. :)

Well friends, that's all for now. Tune in next time for...

Laughter at it's worst,

;)

Nick

P.S. And pray for Kylie who may need it for her grandpa.

We Are Men of Action...

Yeah...'bout that. Heh. ;) Anyway, i'll give you brownie points if you can tell me what movie/book that line comes from.

Well, life's not too shabby right now i guess, folks. You make the most of what you can and the best out of every situation as per usual, but it just seems to pay off a little more when it means somethin' to people. And yet...and yet my mother can still find a way to demand the highest from me. Same with my dad.

It's like they have no concept of what is actually physically possible for me to accomplish. Wanna' know somethin great? Right after the lock-in, which was fantastic not to mention, i'm riding home with my mom whom insists on lecturing me about how my room isn't clean and i didn't do my chores yet. Now i'd be okay with that except that i had no time to do them all week and she makes it out as if i had all the time in the world! And she ignores the fact that i have not had any sleep at all. So, even though i should've done them before, i went to sleep for a couple of hours, got several stern looks encouraging me to do my chores, did them, ate lunch and then went to sleep. For real this time.

Now, i don't mean to come off as whiney or complainy, if the latter is actually a word or not, but i just kinda' need to vent about it every once in a while. Keeps the anger from invading everyday life, ya' know?

Anyway, other than that, life's alright. Not too bad, but it could be better. Everybody's could in some little way, i guess. Well, at least i don't really have school today. Well, that's all for today folks.

Tune in next time for the amzing complaints of.......

Nick

anticlimatic, i know.

"We are men of action, lies do not become us."
- Wesley, The Princess Bride

The Truth of the Matter is...

Well, folks, things have really started to add up here. 'Specially for my parents. I don't know how or why it happenned, but we are flat broke and it's really startin' to ge to me. It's gotten to the point where money is starting to detract from the overal level of happiness experienced in my house, and that simply just cannot happen. It just can't. I guess i just did this out of desperation. Yeah, call it stupid, dumb, or what have you, but it just got to the point where handling it all was gettin' pretty tough and maybe, i don't know how, this thing was part of it.

Stupid, i know.

Anyway, i'll just get through this one way or another. I have to, for my parents, at least. I'm not asking for a pity party or nothin' but i just thought i'd throw that out there. It was tough for me to go bowling tonight. A buck 'fity a game, and i t was tough. Oh, Kimmi, found my quarters, i'll pay ya. My mom felt so bad. I could just see it in her eyes. She really wanted to give me somethin', anything, but she didn't have it. She just didn't. I'm just going to have to get a job. Don't know when the Hell i'm gonna work, but i just gotta'. To pay for all my stuff myself and for some of my sisters and whatever i can.

Well, off i go. Tryin' to save the world again. Here goes nothin'.

'Til i die or you find someone better,

Nick

John Keating: "But only in their dreams can men be truly free. 'Twas always thus, and always thus will be."

Dead Poet's Society

Well, there's nothing to keep me here now, is there?

A song i used to hum quite some time ago.

They Can't Take That Away From Me

The way you wear your hat,
The way you sip your tea,
The mem'ry of all that
No, no! They can't take that away from me!

The way your smile just beams,
The way you sing off key,
The way you haunt my dreams
No, no! They can't take that away from me!

We may never, never meet again
On the bumpy road to love,
Still I'll always, always keep The mem'ry of

The way you hold your knife,
The way we danced 'til three.
The way you changed my life
No, no! They can't take that away from me!
No they can't take that away from me!

Well, folks, that's all. The end. Nothing to see here. Just move right along down the road. I'll catch you all another time and another place, but La Isla De Muerta has become just that. I'll comment every once in a while, but this is the kaputzka for Davy Jones' Locker. I'll be around, no worries. Things have just started to add up a little, ya know? We all carry luggage, the little burdens of life. My parents, school, theatre, speech, and, well, questions without answers have all really kicked me in the pants lately. Don't worry, i'll ge through this somehow. Afterall, i'm Nick Pankuch

I have to.

Good night and Good luck,
Your friend,


Nick

Giggle, Giggle, Stop!....and Giggle Some More Why Don't Ya'?

Ah, good times. Anywho, I'm really excited about the lock-in today. I have a feeling it's going to be not only fun, but a very, shall we say, interesting experience. Fruits has a tendency to be into that sort of thing. It should be fantastic, whatever happens.

Ooh, went to the Panther Marching Review yesterday and it was pretty sweet. Now, i don't pretend to know much about marching bands, but there was some pretty darn cool stuff goin' on out there. And the NIU Marching Huskies were fan-freakin'-tabulous! Band is pretty sweet, I must say.

Hmm, what else? Let me see here...well, that appears to be all for now, folks. Have a lovely weekend, stay out of trouble, and try not to get sick. Everyone and there mother seems to be catchin' somethin' awful lately so wash your hands and the like.

Tappin' the night away,

Nick

P.S. Hey Mike....5....WAAAAh..... :)

This Much I Know is True...

Life just keeps on rollin' and rollin', folks. Its got its occasional bumps and lovely downhill spurts but, overall, it's like waitin' to be pushed down the hill. Just sittin' in the trash can waitin' to give yourself that little shove...well, we'll see. I know I say that a lot, but, one has to keep the faith somehow, I suppose.

Transit came over and ran lines with me today...then Boba Fett got his ass kicked by Jango and Vader reminded Luke who his daddy was. Yeah, nothin' like some pointless, unbalanced board games to break up the monotony of life.

Well, nothing to interesting to report here. Mi hermana jacked up her leg...which sucks. She's gotta hobble around on crutches for a while. At least I'll get to make great Newsies references about Crutchy and all. There is a bright side to everything. Really, there is. I'm pretty anxious about IMEA...but we'll just take that however it comes. Oh, and we started this really cool song in men's ensemble today. It's from Sweeney Todd and it's quite romantic. I'm a sucker for good romantic songs. Should be fun... :)

I guess that's all I got for you right now, folks. Nothin' to grand or interesting...least not yet. I'm waiting though, oh, trust me, I am. Waitin' for the opportune moment. I'll know it when I see it...hope it's soon.

Patiently Impatient,

Nick

Feelin' Gutsy in Addison Trail

So IMHO auditions weren't horrible...'cept for the sightsinging. Things like that are considered illegal in most states, but apparently not this one. I did my best for the time and there's not much more I could ask of myself than that, i guess. I just ran out of breath in some weird places during the prepared pieces...but it wasn't tooi bad. I really hope more than one person makes it, and, with all the talented and skilled people who tried out, I think that shouldn't be too hard.

'Course, the title has nothing to do with the auditions, see. ;) When one spends nine hours in a strange place singing strange music in front of strange people, Julio included, one tends to become, well, more strange. we definitely reached the ice cream phase. It was absurd. Hilarious, but ridiculously absurd. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is where all of us suddenly got gutsy. In Addison Trail. We all suddenly realized what we had to do...in Addison Trail. I just hope our courage plan has rollover, if you catch my drift.

Missing her arms,

Nick

Fiddle Fever

I need that cd, Spence. I do believe that everyone has heard that song, Fiddle Fever, i mean. That somewhere, deep in your heart, whenever you've laughed, or cried, or kissed, or loved, or embraced, or smiled that this is what it sounded like. It's SO gorgeous. brings back a lot of good memories. It's the kind of song that makes you wish life was just a little bit longer. Ah, i really have to get that cd.

I've decided that it's like teetering on the edge of a diving board. The thrill of jumping off and making the biggest darn splash you can possibly make but, at the same time, realizing how high you are and that you're losing your balance...Oh the suspense, it's horribly wonderful. i'm such a dork. srry, can't help it.

E Steel and i got to hear Julio's band tonight. Pretty flippin' sweet. And that was one big spider.

Not to be completely and totally random, but i love to watch the lightning. My dad was talking about how, back in the day, the guys would get together and drink rootbeer in somebody's garage watchin' the lightning and the rain. Those were the days, eh? Those were the days, indeed. Lightning has that tragic beauty to it, ya know? Like a wilting rose...yeah. Those were the days.

IMEA tomorrow....ahhh. Not exactly sure if i'm ready, or capable, of making it this year. I know the music, but i question if my voice will be well enough. Power of positive thinking, eh Dani? i hope it works...

Well, that's all i got for you tonight, folks. Nothin' too interestingly fantabulous goin' on in the life's of little old me. Well, besides that of course. And we'll just see how that goes, i guess...maybe one a' these days i'll...eh, maybe.

Cryptically blatant,

Nick

You Betta' Shape Up...

Wow, i had completely and totally forgotten why i hated the musical Grease until i watched it again this weekend...and at the same time, I seem to remember all of the flippin' songs. And, they get stuck in your head real easy. Gotta' love it, just gotta love it. I decided that any car i purchase, no matter how far away that time may actually be, will be named Grease Lightening, simply because it's horribly cliche and i like it. So there. Srry i didn't get to hang out at the after party...my parents went to see a play and they wanted us home...eh, schmeh. What can you do? Not much, that's what.

Well, this week looks to be a fairly long week, least 'til we get to the lock-in. That should be a whole lot of fun and a really cool experience, i think. Fruits has a knack for that kind of stuff. This show, lemme' tell ya' man, this show is gonna' be somethin' else.

Well, today looks to be an okay day. Now i just have to find a reason to make it a great one...shouldn't be too hard, eh?

;)

Automatic,
Systematic,
Hydromatic,
Say goodbye already,

Nick