Victory and Defeat

Ain't that the truth, eh? Well, we most certainly won the football game tonight and that, friends, is a very, very good thing indeed. Rather satisfying, actually. Gives you a sense of accomplishment, even though all you did is cheer, but then again, where would a football team be without a crowd?

A very quiet football field, that's where.

One must remember, however, that good always has its counter. That there must be a defeat for every victory. In fact, there are, most likely, many defeats before that first victory, and so it goes. Except that one just doesn't "win" or "lose" in this fickle game we play, one loses and loses still with every victory. It is the overcoming of loss and the realization of true victory that shapes who we are. The problem is when one fails to see this loss and loses far more than one could ever imagine. This loss is not easy to overcome, if it can be at all. It may be acceptance that must be looked at as the answer, but, wait a sec, Hell no!

I'm a stubborn son of a bitch, like i'm gonna' sit on my ass "accepting" shit. Yeah right.

It's just a question of whether the above statement matters at all.

I should really stop regretting things so much, but i have no ability to focus on the present, thus leading myself back to the past.

Wow, sometimes i wish i could think like a normal 16 year old. Then again, how boring would that be?

All i can hope for, i guess, is that i can make it through somehow and that things work ouot for the best.

But, well,

One can only do so much.

Cap'n Vincent of The Regret
"The Ace of Spades"