Wel, ladies and gents, i, frankly, don't know what to tell you. There's not even a good title for the bloody thing. I went from a very happy and inspired individual who couldn't be kept from a rollicking good time to someone who's thoughts and memories plague them at every turn. I just can't seem to be satisfied and it bugs the hell out of me. If screwed up so many times that people don't trust me with knowing the color of their socks. And i can't form good relationships with people because I'm Nick Pankuch and everybody knows what Nick Pankuch is and what happens to people around him. I'v just backed myself into a lovely little corner and now i ave no way of getting out of it. I know so many people care about me and all that, but there comes a time when even those people question themselves.
Sorry, you all know i hate sulking and being angsty, but i just can't seem to dig myself out of this rut. Damn.
From the Hotel California,
A.B.P.
Sorry, you all know i hate sulking and being angsty, but i just can't seem to dig myself out of this rut. Damn.
From the Hotel California,
A.B.P.
posted by Cap'n Vincent @ 14.7.06
7 Comments:
At 11:14 AM,
Heather said…
Nick, you can't form a good relationship because you won't let yourself. It has nothing to do with who you are. Remember everybody has their "down" time. Don't treat yourself like you're the plague of the earth. You've made mistakes, like everyone has, but you realize the mistakes you've made and are sorry for making them. You do have a way to get out of that corner you've landed in. Reach out a hand and let those who love you pull you out. It seems impossible to get out of, but with help the task is less daunting. I can name dozens of people that would come to pull you out, but you need to want help first. Crazy right? Well I love you
heather
At 9:23 PM,
Unknown said…
ah yes, the hotel california. such a lovely place...i'll stop with the reference now. ;D
so. back to this again. sweet. *i'm kidding, don't kill me, i'm sarcastic, remember*
oh, and now my brother won't stop singing the song. it's going to get stuck in my head. see, look what you did. (luis: tee hee hee)
well i suppose i should say something pertinent, but i really don't think you'd want to hear it. so i'll leave things as they are, and if you're still in that corner tomorrow, climb out the damn window. i swear, it's not locked. and if it is, i'm sure there's a bobby pin somewhere. macgyver your way out!
...besides. windows lock from the inside. okay i'm done with the metaphors! i promise!
luv always
lady li
At 12:01 AM,
Esmerelda said…
Despite what you think bad things don't come from just being associated with you, people care, I care if that matters, and there is always a window, sometimes it has curtains (not quite Li not quite)
~Em
At 12:29 AM,
Anthony Kayer said…
so your reputation may not be the best...you just have to....fix that...which sounds difficult...trust me...i know...but you just gotta...do it... :P
At 7:43 AM,
Cellar door said…
like anthony said, you do have quite a rep. but don't let what other people think of you get you down. and if it does anyway...prove them wrong, give them a reason to trust you (even if it is just with the color of their socks).
Don't worry, cooch. there are people who trust you, too, one of them being me. if you wanna talk i'm here. Don't go and join the "i'm not going to tell anyone anything ever" club on me.
i'll see you at Gario's tonight? Hitch a ride there. M, Nicole and I are only stopping by for a bit, though.
At 9:46 PM,
Heather said…
Nick, I need to talk to you. It's important. It really is. I need youre advice. I wasn't going to pull you into my affairs, but I'm not sure I have the best judgement right now. Please if you get this come online tomorrow morning between 9-12pm. Please!
Love always,
Heather
At 11:49 PM,
Heather said…
Wait you have church, nevermind. I need to figure things out on my own. No matter how scary that sounds. Sorry if you're confused. I really am.
Love always,
Heather
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