When You Look out on the Water and Say.... Oh Snap.
Haven't we all had one of those moments, though? Looking at something, or someone, truly beautiful, getting caught in the thrill of the moment, and then seeing the fact that you have your whole life ahead of you. That happened to me today.
My dad was cooking out on the gril and i was sitting on a drainpipe on the resevoir behind our house just staring at the water and watching it ripple. My thoughts began to wander and I started to think of people I know and people I knew. Then it occured to me that there was a whole life out there ready for me to live it. A home to own, a card of my own to drive, a wonderful wife to love and long for, a kid or two to bring up and show the glories of what this little place we call Earth has to offer, a dog to pet and yell at on occasion. I went back inside to wash my hands and just walked through my house. I remember moving to it from the old, tiny duplex we had used to live in. Advancing, moving up in life. It was amazing. Just to think that we are all going to experience that. To be able to have things we can call our own and not bought by our parents or the allowance they "say" is ours. It's wonderful.
I can't wait.
Yours, actually
Nick
My dad was cooking out on the gril and i was sitting on a drainpipe on the resevoir behind our house just staring at the water and watching it ripple. My thoughts began to wander and I started to think of people I know and people I knew. Then it occured to me that there was a whole life out there ready for me to live it. A home to own, a card of my own to drive, a wonderful wife to love and long for, a kid or two to bring up and show the glories of what this little place we call Earth has to offer, a dog to pet and yell at on occasion. I went back inside to wash my hands and just walked through my house. I remember moving to it from the old, tiny duplex we had used to live in. Advancing, moving up in life. It was amazing. Just to think that we are all going to experience that. To be able to have things we can call our own and not bought by our parents or the allowance they "say" is ours. It's wonderful.
I can't wait.
Yours, actually
Nick
posted by Cap'n Vincent @ 4.7.06
6 Comments:
At 6:34 PM,
Lancehead said…
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At 8:30 PM,
Heather said…
Life really is beautiful. That's an easily forgotten fact. Bask in the moments when you do realize it. They'll come and they'll go, and sometimes it's hard not to wallow in the moments where life seems gray.
If you're happy then I'm happy for you. Know this though, watch out. Don't push people out of your life that care about you. Your best friend, Danielle, everyone. I know youre happy. I can tell youre happy, but just because your best friend has a different view on who your dating doesn't mean hes against you. He is probably thinking of you not against you. He may be wrong, but people will tend to be wrong sometimes. Even you must admit to being wrong in your lifetime. Danielle has always cared about you. All I'm saying is just don't be too cocky and too much of a jack*** and lose people that will help you out of only seeing the gray.
I don't know if you see me as a good friend. I know I'm not always the best at offering comforting words, or words of wisdom. I'm defiantely not that good at being a friend, but I do wish I was. I know I'm very anti-social. Despite that I do care a lot about you, even when you are a jack***. I want the best for you. You should have the best, you deserve it. Everyone deserves the best no matter their past. I love you, and I always will. Just head my advice, dont let your true friends slip away.
I'm off tomorrow and Thursday again if you want to do anything. I really mean it, I;d love to spend time with you. I miss you a lot.
Love always,
Heather
At 8:38 PM,
Cap'n Vincent said…
Heather, I'm not pushing anyone out of my life. I've been genuinely trying to bring people back in who i fell i have pushed out Danielle, among them. I haven't been pushing them out, circumstances have just forced me to be unable to see them. Circumstances referring of course to parents...
If you'll excuse me. My 22 year-old brother just called and decided to let us know he's engaged...hehehe...i feel giggly.
Thanks, to all of you. I really do miss all of you and i haven't been trying to push you out. If nothing else, i've realized who is really important in my life. My "wonderful" parents and my immediate lack of transportation, referring to a car, forces me to sit in my house and, for lack of a better phrase, pick my good times.
I may have made mistakes, but that doesn't mean i shouldn't do everything in my power to try and mend the wounds i've opened.
Nick
At 9:50 PM,
Cellar door said…
so. the little word verification thing says "prate".
which, if you didn't know, is "pirate" without the "i".
my god. I miss that show.
At 11:06 PM,
Esmerelda said…
As hard as I try I can't imagine the future, I know it will happen, but I just can't imagine myself with a husband and a house and a dog, scratch that I can imagine the dog just not every thing else, I hope that's not a bad thing, I just don't want to restrict myself... stupid catholic church
~Em
At 5:28 AM,
Cap'n Vincent said…
A-fricken-men to that, Em! A-fricken-men.
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