Step 1: Others

No don't get your knickers in a not because I'm writing an entry. I'm just going to write about the things I learn along the way. It will help me deal with things.

I was at the graduation party of one of my really good friends from Church yesterday and it was a blast, let me tell you. We, as in some people I knew but quite a few I had met only vaguely before or never at all, played a great deal of volleyball, talked, ate food, told jokes, and just were all around having fun. Thus, I had an epiphany while driving home and listening to Daniel Powter's Had a Bad Day, oh the irony I know, I know.

People actually genuinely want to have a good time and talk and just be there with you. They, as in anyone I know or have ever known, don't really care about your past, what's bugging them right now, or what bugging you right now, they just want to have a good time among good friend and even better strangers. There were kids from 16 to college there and everyone sat at the same table and talked with everyone else like they had known them forever. Most likely because they actually did, lol.

I guess, this epiphany was step one because I realized that I don't have to be someone else when I'm around certain people. I don't need to impress or try all night to gain there favor or friendship; I can be who I am and they will accept that. I don't have to change what I am to fit what they need I an be me and be even more than I had ever dreamed of.

I got a glimpse of him there, a the party. For a brief moment in time I had forgotten every trouble I had ever had while I was playing volleyball and laughing with friends. Then I went to get a soda and, I know this sounds weird but just think for a second, I saw someone getting caked. Then I remembered and subdued, but I saw him. I know how he thinks and how he feels and I know that I need to find the one thing that will let him shine forever. I just have to find it.

This is Nick P., signing off.

Catch you on the flipside.